Dear Tracy

*This is one of the rare posts that includes cussing; fair warning*

Good morning and happy Sunday, Y'all!

I would think that the time between posts lets you know how things have been going.

Chaotic.

School is about to start for me, my kiddo is already rocking the standard M-F of senior year (which means that I am as well), and I had to apply for some temporary aid from the state, so Texas requires 35 hours of verified job searches per week (even if you get hired!) until you are removed from aid, which can take up to 60 days (8 weeks of those requirements being met!) to be removed from should I sit on hold for an hour and request to be removed. 

With everything I have going on, I'm going to say here and now, that I will probably only be posting on Sundays for a while, but at least I'll be back to posting! 

And buried inside the timeline of all that personal life chaos, there was the country's chaos of the election to end all elections; and several relationships from what I've seen on social media.

I have only blocked one person due to their political beliefs, and it's not why anyone, including that person, if she knows yet, would think.

I will come out now, regardless of what hot water I may wind up in later, I am a virulent ANTI-Trump woman. I am not a Kamala lover nor did I vote for her because she is a woman; all politicians are flawed and of the two, she had my vote less for being her and more for Not Being Trump.

I grew up in NJ and have known about Trump and his ignorant arrogance since before his first Pizza Hut commercial with Ivanna. I remember dealings in Atlantic City and before The Art of The Deal. The face, the stance, the lies, the greed.

I am personally related to a former Masonic big wig who had business meetings with DJT as part of the Shriners on behalf of a fundraiser for their children's hospitals. They were turned down because they asked for a discount on the facility which could have been used as a charitable donation at tax time for Trump. 

Lose money to help children in need? Fuck No! Not Trump.

There is no kindness in his soul along with manyManyMANY other character and belief flaws he possesses.

I personally believe that this country is so completely fucked behind the choice of this man that I, for the first time in 53 years of life, found myself crying in the car on Wednesday morning over the outcome of the election.

As a person who was born with a vagina and can see the long game coming, I can only hope that we can undo what this joker is about to do. Which may not even be possible after he removes more women's rights to keep them from fighting back.

It's a lot. My mind is playing out scenarios both best and worse case and even the best cases are mostly horrible.

I have been everywhere that I'm on social media with #trumpisascumbag and I hope it catches on, because it's the core of where this country is about to go.

Now, as much as I'm willing to die on this hill, my one blocked friend, Tracy, is as outspoken in her commitment to the Trump side of things.

Before this election, I would say that Tracy is a kind person. She and her husband are good people. Her daughter has been raised to be a good person. We aren't especially close, but I always enjoyed her, and her friendship. I've known her since 1987. And when I released my book, she was one of the first people to buy one and write just the most wonderful message to me of encouragement. My accomplishment brought her joy. Her joy has always brought me joy. 

And she voted for Trump. 

Which, as a woman, I almost feel is worse than a man voting for Trump.

A betrayal from within the sisterhood. 

And all I can think, because of my prior knowledge of Tracy as a person, is that she has been manipulated into believing a lie. 

IDK what the viewpoint is that specifically has garnered her allegiance to that side, but I do know that the compassionate, caring, and genuinely kind person that I have known for over thirty years cannot possibly believe in that man without having been lied to; because otherwise she'd be shouting about women's rights from the mountaintops.

But she voted for Trump.

All I can say to Tracy, and every other female follower of and about Trump: My Wonderful, please scratch the lies. Do some deeper research into your hot-button topic that caused your belief in Trump, whatever that issue may be. Please, please do more research.

Economy? The only presidents that benefit from the economic plan of their first term are the ones that are elected to a second consecutive term. Do you know what that means in real world terms? Trump's 'better economy' of 2016 was because of the framework Obama set up. And how's this for you; Biden's fucked economy was due to Trump's policies because that's who controlled the previous 4 years. When the economy improves in the next 4 years, you're going to have to go thank Joe.

OUCH!

Oh, was it abortion? Well, Ladies, you have every right to be opposed to abortion. It's your body, please do with it as you wish - just like any man does.

Here's the problem with making your opposition the law of the land: women not being able to do what they wish with their own bodies lowers us to second-class citizenship. Men are autonomous, but women are not. If you don't agree with abortion, don't get one and teach those around you why you disagree with it. But forcing anyone to give birth for reasons that are not their own is forced compliance.

Forced compliance is slavery.

Let's carry this on down. No abortion. Some women will simply die. Not a euphemism, fact. Then you have the children who will go into the system when they're abandoned, or raised by the mother that never wanted them and abuses or neglects them. Then there's the children themselves that now have all sorts of mental and possibly physical issues due to being raised in those environments.

How is no one looking at what this is going to do to the system, the American population, and the populace itself?

And now Trump is talking about making porn illegal. Porn is not my thing, but I can tell you, as a society that has become used to having porn, what removing it will do. The eventual outcome is a rise in the national rape rate.

Yeah, you heard me. The number of rapes will increase without that porn outlet. 

And, abortion is illegal.

Are you seeing it now? Fucking disaster AND women will bear the brunt of the decision. More stress on the system; crime numbers up, ER numbers up, mental health issues up, police numbers down; can't keep up with it all.

OUCH.

But maybe it was something else. Some other issue.

Regardless, I cannot have this conversation with my blocked friend, Tracy.

She's not pro Trump, she PRO TRUMP.

I'm not anti Trump, I'm ANTI TRUMP.

So, this may surprise you, but the reason that I blocked Tracy is because I love her. 

I love the Tracy that I've known for *ahemwearenotthatoldahem* years. And I am quite certain that one of us will post something that will most likely offend each other. Posts are indefinitely readable, after all.

Now, would I happily go to lunch or hang out with Tracy if we both agreed to lay down any political conversation while we were together? Absolutely. I'd love to.

But until then, or for the next probably 4-5 years (assuming Trump will leave office when he gets his dictatorial ass in there; he did say there would be no election in 2028, didn't he?) I will keep Tracy blocked for the sake of our friendship.

During this time, I will send her all the love and light that I would have normally. I will think of her fondly and defend her to anyone that dares speak ill of her to me (no one ever has, but in such a case). For now, I will love her from afar.

And should she ever scratch that lie and find the inevitable thief, I will wipe her tears of heartbreak and hug her into the sisterhood once again with compassion and forgiveness. For who of us hasn't believed a lie at some point in our lives?

Dear Tracy,

I blocked you on social media because I love you!

I'll see you on the other side my friend.

#trumpisascumbag

Love,

Aria